If you were to fall in love me and
if I were to fall in love with you,
then this, this is what you’re getting yourself into…
A LOT of movie marathons,
Or watching the stars and questioning our existence,
Or attending band concerts,
Or arguing about how unfair life is,
Or you know… just getting to spend time together.
If you were to fall in love with me
then I will ask why you fell in love with me
because I can be sooo insecure
and I don’t like it, but I’m working on it.
If you were to fall in love with me then you
will see every single side of me. Including the weird ones.
I will fangirl. That is certain.
So I’m letting you know right now that Draco Malfoy,
Percy Jackson, Mr. Darcy, and so many more have
had my heart even before I met you.
If I’m reading, let me read.
If you know I have an exam coming up then LET. ME. STUDY.
If my writing of fanfiction freaks you out, then go leave the room, buddy.
If you see me getting excited over the latest issue of Batman,
Gotham Academy, Batgirl, Ms. Marvel, or Spider-Gwen,
let the geek in me be. If you want me to talk about my love for the
Bat Family, prepare yourself about the fact that I’m planning
to name my four future sons Dick, Jason, Tim, and Damian
because Robin is that fuckin’ awesome. And if you tell me
that I look pretty without make-up, then I will say thank you
but that will not stop me from wearing make-up
because I’m not doing it for you. I’m doing it for me.
If you pay for my order, don’t. (exception: only if I’m totally broke,
but I will pay you back) If you still insist, then we can split the bill.
If you tell me that because you’re ‘the guy’ and you have to pay,
you need to stop because you are not obligated to do that.
And- AH! If we love each other we shouldn’t even let this be an issue!
It’s just money!
Heck, I don’t even like fancy dates.
Let’s just stay in and order pizza.
So much better.
But we’ll still split the bill.
If I were to fall in love with you and you want
to hang out with your friends, then go.
Don’t ask permission from me, I’m not your mom.
You’ve had a life of your own before we met, I don’t want
to stop you from living that life. If you want to play Dota 2
or League of Legends or Pokemon then do it. If I ask if I could play,
I’m probably just joking because I’ve tried before
and I sucked. If you don’t text or call,
I will try my best not to be clingy because trust me,
that is the last thing I want to be.
If I notice you holding back your tears when we’re watching
Toy Story 3, or Up, or Grave of the Fireflies then… odds are…
I’m already crying so you let those man tears fall and I will
not judge you. I will never judge you, you know that.
If you’d rather watch NBA or FIFA with the guys,
then go right ahead because I’ll be honest,
I have no idea how those games work.
If I wrote little snippets about you or us,
then give yourself a pat on the back because
you have inspired me to let that little moment
be immortalized in the form of poems or stories.
I can also be a major bitch sometimes so… just saying.
We’ll respect each other.
We’ll accept each other.
We’ll make fun of each other.
We won’t see eye to eye… but we’ll compromise.
We won’t spend too much time together,
But we will make memories together.
But if, if, IF there will come a time when you no longer love me,
if you find love in somebody else who makes you happy
like I used to or maybe even more,
just tell me right away. Don’t pretend that you still
have feelings for me. Because I’d rather
you break my heart right away than having you lie to me and
cheat on me for a long period of time. If you’re scared that you’ll break my heart
then that’s a given. Of course my heart will break, it’ll shatter
like a broken glass, but you know that
I am stronger than that. And I know you are too,
so just tell me right away. Please.
If it were the other way around, I’ll find the courage and
will do the same. But if we can make us work,
let’s try to make us work. If it doesn’t and
it’s time to let go and say good bye,
then I suppose it’s time.
If you were to fall out of love with me and
if I were to fall out of love with you,
then I hope, I truly hope you won’t regret what you’ve gotten yourself into.
I know I won’t.